Where to begin?

big props are in order for jenny for keeping the blog alive. her posts have been wonderfully entertaining. good show jenny!

the past couple of weeks have pretty much sucked ass. i have been very busy, and not in a good way. where to start?

i got a "job" hosting a music video show.... on the internet. it sounded fun at first, but it quickly turned into a large time commitment with very little money. i tipped off those in charge at the fledging company that i didn't want to do it, but was asked to "give it a try" for three days. so i gave it a try for three days. it was fun, i guess, but not really. it was easy enough; i would come in at 6 or 7, select music videos from a (limited) list, talk over the show with my co-host, then host the show. the best part of the whole thing was that after my show, "in the garage" was "metal mayhem" with crazy j. crazy j is an incredible human being. he really is crazy. he loves metal with a pure heart and snow white sincereity. for his first show, crazy j brought in a homeless and mentally ill man from the alley to sit on the couch and mutter obsenities while crazy j introduced metal videos, drank beer and shouted "hail!". the second night, crazy j brought in a very commited and very scary metal band to interview on his show. these guys were insane. they came in dressed in full costume and make-up. the drank a lot of beer, but through a straw- so to not disturb their lipstick. one of the scary men thought i looked like alyssa millano and interivewed me as such. it was the closest i had ever been to a real life heavy meatal personality and i was proud.

i'm not going to do the show anymore. the problem lay in that i have two jobs. one job i hate because my boss is always drunk and high and disorganized and getting mad at me when i don't understand that part of my jobs is handling his drug transactions. the other job i love more than any job i've ever had, but requires very long hours. i wasn't looking for a third job, and especially not one that tells me,"don't do it for the money, do it because your passionate". so that's that.

right now i need to go to work and sell cheese and fig reduction sauce. i will write more later about how else the past two weeks have sucked. stay tuned for topics like: the huge fight i had with mother and how she refuses to say that i am not stupid but instead tells me how much she likes micah; how dirty my apartment is and if i had children they would be taken away; and how the hamiltons are moving.

got to go, i'm not going to spell check.